About da hubby...

Hello world; I know I have been MIA for the past few days....Today I am going to write about that very special man in my life my hubby Bill. We met 28 years ago in June when we both ended up at a bar called "Close Encounters" behind "The Bowling Green" in West Chicago, IL. I was with a friend who had no problems getting dance partners; I was not as lucky and was contemplating making a sign saying "I only want to dance with you; not date you" when this handsome cowboy walked in and asked me to dance. We danced and talked and talked; he gave me his number and I said something dumb like "I don't call guys yada, yada" and we said good night. I also wasn't looking to date anyone at that time either. However, we both showed up at the same place the next night and we hung out; this time he asked for my number and I gave it to him.
    I didn't want to fall in love, I was a mess and knew I wasn't good for anyone; however, he made me laugh. I'm not talking about the little titters, he made me laugh with abandon and that is something I still value to this day. Poor thing didn't know what he was getting into. He still reminds me when he found out about the hearing aid that I said "treat me like anyone else". He still knows that is true for the most part; however, he also has adapted very well to living with a person with hearing issues and how to have fun with it. He recently found out the "Bill where are you?" game. I will make the mistake of calling out and asking him where are you and in some of his funniest voices he will call out I'm right here!. Well, I am not a bat and my ears are no help at all so here I am trying to figure out what room he is in...By the time I find him it is always "how could you not find me; I was right here?" And for the record; he is the only one who can get away with that since he speaks loudly enough for me to hear him and I refuse to kill him ;p
   Bill met my parents without me being present both times. He was invited to a party my Mother was having for a few of my brother's friends. Bill was not there yet since he wasn't due for an hour or lao and my Mother insisted she needed something so she made me and my brother go get it saying "you have time and he won't be here for a while". I get back and he was making my Mother laugh; to this day my Mother adores him and he can do no wrong in her eyes. She was a wise woman since he helped her out and gave her a beautiful grand daughter. Bill met my father because my parents were divorcing and he wanted the car back that he had given me to use; so Bill was following me to return it in La Grange, IL. I got show offy and missed my exit and ended up in Orland Park with no idea how to get back. Bill was waiting for me and concerned when I didn't show up. He went looking for my father and found him eating lunch next to his store. Bill said he was worried and my father didn't seem to care. And yes I obviously found my way back and Bill and my Father never did become friends because in Bill's eye's there was no concern for my safety and therefore no love.
   We may not be other people's cup of tea but we are hot for each other. He will even play peek a boo and jump out at me which always makes me laugh (except for the time he startled me and I stepped on his foot) Ooops...He is a grownup with an occassional 5-12 year old sense of humor which I adore! He has saved many a bad day by making me laugh. And how I love to laugh; even a simple joke or comment can get me to laugh. Being married to me gives him lots of material too ;p
   If you ever go into the local St Charles Target you may see him, he will chat and wears a vest to keep off the chill. And if I am with him and I since I am normally spacy I may accidentally get in front of your shopping cart and he will offer you a dollar to run me over wth your cart ;p Yes, it is that kind of off the wall humor I find amusing. We can have some interesting conversations as we wander around. Just saying....Well, it is time to end this blog..Remember, you are loved! And if you ever need a laugh give Bill a shout and he will be happy to accomodate ;p He may not be happy I just said that he, he. I hope you all have a wonderfull weekend. Try to stay cool and send some rain to West Chicago, Il okay?
  

Talking to oneself

Good morning world!!!! Hm, what should I write about today? Julia, think!! I am thinking!! Not fast enough!! Well, I think that answers that question. So, how many of you folks talk to yourself? Come on now be honest. And I don't mean the talking in your head kind; I mean the talking out loud kind.. Well? Anyone or am I just talking to myself here?? If you said no YAY YOU!! If you said yes I love your honesty.
    I am very talkative with myself; unfortunately, for anyone who is around me and likes peace and quiet. Not sure why I do it and some days are better than others. I just googled talking to oneself and found that it is actually helpful in the learning and working processes because it helps you think. Well, it does help me..not so sure about the people around me ;p
      To say I am really bad would be the biggest understatement of the world. It drives hubby CRAZY! Mostly because he doesn't always know if I am talking to him or to myself. To be fair, I am usually in another room when I am doing most of it so he can, usually, safely assume I am not talking to him...maybe...It is very embarassing when done in public places...like work...ouch...Nothing like distracting other people. Okay, so most people can't really hear me; however, I did warn the person sitting across from me about my issue. There comment? As long as you don't answer back.....
      Hmm, go back to the beginning of this post and see Julia talking to herself..what else is she doing? Answering back!! Yes, I am one of THOSE people!! Don't hate! And be honest I bet if you really thought about it some of you do too. It helps in the decision making process when you aren't quite sure what you want...Or when you disagree with what is happening on the television. Yes I am one of those people too..Why did they do that??? Come on now!! I should have known they wuld do that...Well, I could go on all day about this toipc so I will stop there ;p
    If you are one of those people just remember to keep it to a dull roar and try not to wander aimlessly while you are talking to yourself and you will be okay!!  Remember, you are loved and appreciated. I appreciate you taking time out of your busy life to read this post. I love you guys and hope you have a wonderful day!!

Chicago Cubs!!! How clean can you get man?!?!

    Hello world, today's rant??? How clean are the Chicago Cubs going to get before they start winning again???? Dang! If they get swept any more they won't need to bathe they will be so clean!! I love the Cubs but something has got to be done. If a business did this bad they would have gone under by now....Just saying...I miss Lee :*(. He was a good all around player and the Cubs could use some of those right now.
   Hubby agrees and even commented maybe they should just call it quits for the season...So sad and yet... Cubs fans are true blue..Pun intended...I want to see them rally the troops and come out slugging with their Louisville's. Come on Cubs it ain't over yet!!!! Okay, so you are in last place..in all divisions......There is still some hope...I believe in miracles and there is always next year!!!
    To be honest I am not sure why I love the Cubs but I do. I am the family rebel. My family are all..Chicago White Sox fans!!! Oh no!!! Where did we go wrong? ;P  I think it is because hubby and I are Chicago Cubs fans not necessarily baseball fans. And then we are Chicago fans.. We will root for the White Sox if in the end they are in the World Series.  Not because we are not Cubs fans; we just aren't haters! Just kidding! I know my family would probably root for the Chicago Cubs if they ever made it into the World Series...unless...they were playing the Chicago White Sox!!!
    This is a special shout out to my big brother Mark who, although he does not care for the Chicago Cubs, does read my blog faithfully and even lets me know what he thinks. Love him dearly and miss him out in Washington!!! It is a scorcher out here in Illinois and we need the rain so how about sending us some, okay Mark??? ;p Remember, you are all special people in this world even if you are  a White Sox fan or even a Green Bay Packers fan!!!NOOOOOO!!!!!! Just kidding! You are loved and I think of you each day and pray that you have a wonderful day!!!! You are all truly loved!!

Sunday Post Spiritual, love thyself

    Good day friends...To those of you who took up the challenge the Sunday before last how did you do? I did not do well I am afraid. However, I will keep trying. As a child I memorized John 3:16: "For God so loved the world He gave his only Son so that whosoever believed in Him would have eternal life." However, the rest of John 3 is also very enlightening; it explains that He did not send His Son to condemn the world but to save it. John chapter 3 in the final verse also speaks about obedience to Him as we follow His word. If we believe then we must also act on those beliefs.
    This is something I still struggle with daily and at the age of 50 I do not see the struggle ending any time soon; because although I am saved, I still face sin on a daily basis. My greatest struggles are with being  a slob, impatience, laziness, an inability to reach out to others which may be the most selfish of all of them. And I know I am being hard on myself; however, someone needs to be.  I will never progress if I don't at least make the effort.
     I know that He loves me; however, I was reminded by someone I love that I have still not learned to love myself. I am working on it and I know I am not the only one who struggles with this. We may be creatures of our past and present situations; nevertheless, we have some one who can help us. He wants to help us. Although I still struggle with my sense of self I am still a long way from when I was a child who feared everything and suffered from extremely low self esteem. He became my friend and helped me to hold on until I was old enough to learn...Which took about 50 years ;p Cause I am still learning.
    I believe as the Bible says He is glorified through my weaknesses. I am not the one who can do all of the things I am capable of He is. He just asks that I believe and try and obey. Or as Yoda would say " Do or do not there is no try". I need to start putting one foot in front of the other and make the needed efforts. I am not worthy of His love; after all, and yet He still loves me. I even like to think that occasionally I can make Him laugh with some of the sillier "stupid" things I have done. Well, my beloved friends I hope you had a great weekend and hope your week is fantastic!! Because you deserve it. Remember, you are loved and I pray and think about you all daily. I hope we can continue our daily chats and that I can bring some hope to your day as you all bring to mine. Until the next blog..

Tears are cleansing

   Good morning world!!! So, yesterday I was going to blog about being in a pissy mood; however, I held back on that ;p.... It has been a rough week for no particular reason or too many reasons to count...In another week, I start a new chapter in my work life; my current job was shifted to Arizona and I will miss it a lot. It is what gave me the courage to finally start a blog (that and my daughter's encouragement ;p). It is hard to keep doing what I love this week only to lose it next week;however, I am incredibly blessed to still have a job and the people I will be working with are people I already know and I will enjoy working with them again. I am really lucky!!
    I am also dealing with my body issues; nothing new here just more annoying because of the heat and impacts hubby (I get even crankier than usual! ;p). Okay, if you must know the fancy shmancy name for it is Hidradenitis suppurativa. That is all I will say about that! Look it up nosy ;p. Just got off a round of prednisone for it and I hate not being weaned from it! My body has been hurting all week like I have been beat up. It is better now so I apologize to anyone I may have snapped at...
    And there is family I worry about who are going through their own very real pain issues. The prednisone "crash" made me realize how very much they must be suffering right now. So sorry :(... They were a workaholic for decades and now the pain is too much for them to work...harsh reward for so much hard work....I am lucky to have them as they are my biggest source of laughter; just wish they didn't have to suffer...This is my hubby and yet he still manages to make me laugh daily; a commodity I need a lot of..
     So, I guess I had some valid reasons for my melt down yesterday; as long as I got through it and didn't hurt anyone. We all have days when we feel the need for a good cleansing cry; that was for me: yesterday. I am not ashamed that I cried since sometimes it is needed for clarity; I would be ashamed if I had allowed it to continue or to harm anyone else. I love my life and would not trade it for any one's!! I came home after my cry and my hubby, as always,  made me laugh. I don't know what I would do without him in my life.
    Dear friends, remember you are loved no matter who you are or where you are!! It would be amazing to see all of you; old friends and new!! Remember, crying or pausing to allow the pain to flow is not a sign of weakness; after all the grass grows taller after the rain has flowed. I love you all so much and hope this blog lets you know that! Have a great day!!

Good evening all!!!   It is hot, hot, hot around here!!  And the Chicago Cubs beat the Chicago White Sox!! ;p WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ;p

   Wednesday here and I haven't got a clue...Just had a bottle of water with some sugar free koolaid that was strawberry, orange and banana flavored. Sort of like a drinking jello or the kiddie koolaid offered at kids parties. Very refreshing, seriously!! Now I am drinking Arnold Palmer Half & Half ice tea lemonade mix sugar free; not quite as refreshing but it will do....Trying to stay hydrated and the fruity stuff is helping more than the ice tea stuff...hmmm.. You just never know what will work do you? Life is like that sometimes. Always chasing for the harder or more "sophisticated" fixes when something simpler may be the best way to go. The kiddie fruity stuff is the winner this time over the "grown up" ice tea ;p
    We are still in need of rain here and hope we get some soon. A nice soaking rain would be good; however, we are still better off than some areas. Blahhh!! I can't think too well...Have nothing on my mind except....Okay, "SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE"!!    It starts shortly and hopefully the top 20 will be filled with talented people. We need another performer like Benjy to get the show fun to watch again ;p And more variety in the dance styles. They have been getting lazy lately and doing too much ball room, etc.
    Well, since I admitted my addiction to "So You Think You Can Dance" I might as well admit the one to "Master Chef" (yes I watch "Hell's Kitchen" but not as much of a fan). I already have some favorite chefs like Christine, Becky and Monti.  "Hell's Kitchen" just makes me wonder... Where do they get these people??? And I thought I was cranky all of the time ;p
   Well, it is getting to be that time "So You Think You Can Dance!!!". I hope you all have a wonderfully cool evening or a hot one if that is your preference.  Remember, you are loved and appreciated. Be kind to yourself as well as to the people around you; we all have to ride around this world together so we might as well be kind (Something I need to remember before I open my own mouth ;p). Good night!
   

Indecision or what do you want to do?

    Hello world! How are you today? I am a little bit tired  and it is a scorcher out right now!  I know it has been a while so I don't know where this will go tonight. Hmmmmm...I am thinking about the scene in Runaway Bride where Julia Roberts is sitting surrounded by an array of different kinds of eggs trying to figure out which one she likes the best. I am much the same way if you ask me for my favorite food, books, etc I would be hard pressed to tell you.
   Which can cause problems when hanging out with people. Unless I am craving something at the moment I will pretty much go wherever the other person wants to go; as long as they have something I can eat. I guess that makes me hmm...indecisive,...is that the right word for it? I can't decide and I really don't care. There is enough stress in life that I tend to take this attitude; which to be honest many, many people hate I know. I am a pain in the neck ; however that is because other people are the same way about making decisions. ;p
    I am not like that with everything. My choice of hubby was a no brainer..he makes me laugh which is often in short supply in life and he of all people "gets" me. I am just realizing that it is not necessarily a bad thing to be indecisive about the little things unless you allow people to walk all over you. I think some people are afraid of indecision; or another word for it that works is FLEXIBILITY; because it is viewed as a sign of weakness. I see it as being compassionate with whom I am with; how do I know if they are in pain or may want to do something they don't normally get to do when hanging out with someone else? Also, you never know what new opportunities might come up by just being patient.
    I know  I have said in past posts that I was afraid of everything as a kid; however, a friend recently reminded me of a story I told her about the game of chicken I used to play with the my bext door neighbor friend with the dirt bike. Those were true stories. I have never been afraid of a game of chicken or dodge ball. I was great at dodging things that were aimed at me such as moving dirt bikes and dodge balls; and won in chicken. Dodge ball I was good at surviving the dodge part but not the throwing part so it either ended in a tie or I lost when I threw the ball and the other person caught it. I still am a wuss at throwing objects.
    So where am I going with this? Everyone has quirks or fears; I am viewed as a people pleaser too; however, people in some form ar another terrify me. To be honest people can really annoy me and make me wonder where my hermit cave went. If you see me say hello and smile at  you that takes effort and comes from above since I am not by nature a happy go lucky kind of person. It takes a lot of work; let me tell you; so I get tired some days of even trying ;p
   Okay, so this blog went way off the beaten path. Like I said it is a scorcher and my brain is fried!!! Remember, you are loved dearly by me if no one else; which I find very hard to beleive that no one else loves you dear friend. Anyone who takes pity and reads this blog has to be a loving person and so worth getting to know!!! I love you all and I know I am going to get grief for this...Yes, I know...The Chicago Cubs are playing the Chicago White Sox tonight..So root for your favorite team!! I will be waiting on the Cubs ;p Love you all!!!